I am going thru so much right now in my head and in my heart.

I got very little sleep last night and I feel just mentally drained. I feel like my childhood was such a challenge and I dealt with more than any child should have to, that my adult life should have been easier, ya know? I have always felt that there must have been SOME reason that God put me in the family he did, but now as an adult everything has come back to haunt me and make life hard again. WHY????

I'm just praying that I don't let this sidetrack me from my weight loss goals, cause finally in my life I believe that I am WORTH taking care of and I'm actually LOSING weight and exercising! That's part of this whole thing too......I've always taken care of everyone else at the expense of myself and worried about keeping someone else happy and I'm still doing it.

Sigh........I just want to be happy.